Going 30.

30 is the new 20 right?

I am writing this post with a heavy heart and scared mind. I am turning thirty in less than a week. Wao. I have a hard time realizing it. Time went by so fast for the last decade.

I like to think that I am not afraid of a lot of things regarding the flow of life (No, spiders don’t count). I always look forward tomorrow and I know things can and will get better even if sometimes I don’t see it. I love going on adventures and see where life gets me. I moved to Canada, to New Zealand but I was not scared, I was exited.

But this time, I am very scared. I don’t know why. 30 is just another round number, right? It is not going to change me from one day to another and I know it. I survived 20 and did fairly well I think, at least I like my life, I have great family, amazing friends and I know how lucky I am to have them in my life. I wanted to live in Canada and I made it happen (at least for now, immigration processes are so slow!). I did a world tour when I was 26, living in New Zealand for a year, going to the US, going to Australia, Tasmania and Japan. And today I am going to Iceland with the hope to see Northern Lights. Northern lights have been on my bucket list since I was very little. I tried and failed many times to see them. I really hope I will see some this time. (UPDATE: I saw some in the plane right after writing this article!!!)

I have always been one of those who are driven by their dreams. Sometimes reality bites but I still tried to persue them.

I have fulfilled lots of my dreams in my 20’s and some might say that I am lucky. Maybe I am, yes, but maybe not. I made them happen, every choice I made was to make them happen. It’s not easy to leave home, but it is worse not to and then keep dreaming of what it would have been. It’s easy to grow resentment towards what didn’t happen. At least if you leave, you might bite dust and not like it, but you can always return home. Your dreams are at few choices away. It does not have to be all in one day. Every day, take little decisions toward them and someday, they will be at one choice away.

So I guess I am realizing while writing that maybe that is what scares me today. I have to make new dreams. I have still some short time realization one like going to Patagonia during the year or someday to a photo expo, but I have to start dreaming my 30 and I didn’t had time to do that lately. My birthday arrived too quickly and I have been so busy living for the past two years that my 30’s never stuck in my head.

I guess this is what they call the 30’s crisis or the midlife crisis.

So what’s next? What are my dreams for this new decade?

I won’t have the answer today but let’s start it by this trip to Iceland! You can follow me, my brother, my sister and my sister in law on Instagram @welcomeho.me

I will also do some posts here once I manage to sort the pictures I’ll take.

Cheers to 2020, cheers to my 30’s and cheers to fulfilling your dreams.